superbpudding

This will be my first post on ONISM! I’m very excited to have found this group. Sometimes, I can’t help but hate this life. The monotony of the repetition of the cyclical cycles of the ordinary, are really starting to take their toll, or something like that. I don’t know what any of this means, I just know that I feel it in my bones, and it’s all one giant spiraling circle, and it’s all the same again and again every single day, and I don’t like it anymore. Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, every day. So, I’ve been thinking. There HAS to be a way to leave it all behind. TO just, get it away from it all. I think I’ve found it. Late at night, in the twilight hours, between crying myself to sleep, and waking up, I can feel myself... floating above my body. And, I know it would just be so easy to leave it all behind. I start to move away, first through my walls, and then I’m in my attic, and then I’m floating above my house, and I can see everything. I can see everything. I can see through my neighbors homes, into all the tiny apartments, and I’m really high up now. And then, just when I’m about to touch the stars, and I think of my cat, alone in my bed, well, not alone because he’s on top of my body that’s still in my bed. And then, I’m back in my bed, and I’m awake, and I’m crying and get out of bed, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, Wake up, feed the cat, kiss the cat, go to work, have a lunch break, come home, make dinner, cry yourself to sleep, every day. And then I found this site. My coworker told me about it. He’s nice. I like him. He’s got good glasses, and a nice smile. He says that this site helped him when he got really bored, and was looking for some answers. Do you guys ever have experiences like this? Have you ever... left your body?

VERAformer

Hey @Superbpudding welcome to ONISM. I’m one of the mods here. Glad to hear we’re able to offer you some solace in your time of need! I think what you’ve stumbled upon here is Lucid Dreaming. It’s when you’re asleep, and you become aware that you’re dreaming. Then, you can control everything, provided you don’t wake up. Probably, subconsciously, you’re desire to escape is coming through in the form of a reoccurring dream... then, you wake control, and you stop to float away. Lucid dreaming is a fantastic way of escaping the stresses of your daily life, but it can be really addicting, so be careful. If these feelings continue, you should consider getting professional help. There is a good self-help, and psychology forum in the links section at the bottom of the page. Check it out some time!

superbpudding

Thanks @VERAformer for the advice. I’m not entirely sure if what I’m experiencing is lucid dreaming or not, because I’m pretty aware of being awake before it happens. And I’m just lost in my thoughts, thinking about getting away, and about how little I have left to care about. And then, it starts to happen. This first started happening when I was a student... but I never got further than my bedroom because it’s just so scary to think about leaving my cat. Do you have any other theories about what’s happening?

bearsnessecity

@superbpudding to me it does sound like a lucid dream, but there is also the possibility that it’s astral projection. I’ve read about people who can separate their mind from their bodies, and explore the earth as a spirit. Maybe that’s what you’ve tapped into? I’d be curious to see if you can successfully do it in the middle of the day. Consider trying it in afternoon and report back!!!